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Sunday, 07 October 2007

  • Aching body and plans

    Its a long time since I last post on my blogs here.Well,I am too lazy too post anything before PMR and after PMR,which is just the day before yesterday.Speaking 'bout PMR,I think I just had successfully failed my Science.Which is not a very wise thing to do since I wan to enter Science classes next year.I seriously do not know how to answer ANY question on the Paper 2 so I am smart enough enough to just create some fact and stick it there.The rest of the paper were okay but I am kinda worried of my English literature.I have always prided myself in my ability of answering any literature question that were flung my way so I feel really angry and insulted when I could not answer that particular section well.Anyway,since PMR are officially over,me and my friends have decided to share the joy by playing badminton from 8.30-12.00 yesterday.Since I stopped playing badminton in June because of transportation problem,my body is not yet accustomed to tensing my muscle for a long time and it resulted in my whole body aching like hell this morning.My whole body excluding my left hand were numb and I can't even stand up straight let alone walk.But I am still going to our weekly badminton plan from yesterday to keep my body active.Badminton is my only sports interest and I would not be caught dead watching football or soccer.They bore me to the core...

Saturday, 25 August 2007

  • Patience are Thinning

    I am a very mean girl.I either forgive easily or never forgive at all.I might also take revenge when I feel that someone who angers me deserve it.For example,I just HATE it when others TOUCH my belonging without asking my permission,let alone take it without even informing me.My sisters know how bitchy I am when they take my things so they never let me know if they do it.I just flare up at one of them today.She took a bottle of my pencil lead  last week and I just know it today.So,I just remind her about what I hate the most.Instantly,I got my revenge.I have managed to torture her mentally.While I may act indefferently but when I am alone,I will taunt her about it.Up till now,she dares not touch my things and have shut her mouth respectfully.I know that this is a very mean thing to do as an elder sister but I just simply hate it if my belonging is touched.And yea,I am VERY possesive.I also have vey,VERY thin patience.Just now,I took my dogs for a walk to the field and I chain them up as not to scare the other children there.One of the boy just had to test my patience.Again and again he throw stones at my dogs and taunted my dogs to chase him.My final straw was when he SPITS on one of them.He wants them to chase him right?So I let both of my dogs to play with him.I un-chain them and sit behind,watching them chase the boy.Frankly,I am not sorry at all.The end?The boy run up the slide and dare not climb down until I chain them up again.I sometimes wonder whether I am a bad or good person.But I guess I am more to the bad side....

Wednesday, 22 August 2007

  • A Fake Smile

    A fake smile,

    Keep dancing on her lips,

    She is so good at it,

    That nobody knows that she is acting,

    Nobody knows that the energetic girl,

    Is just an act with the best smiles,

    It is not pleasure,

    It is not joy,

    It is just the welling tears of hurt,

    Behind  her brown unfathomable eyes,

    All just an act,

    To hide the true her.

     

    A fake smile,

    So pathetic that she despised herself,

    So unreal that it is too painful to look at,

    Nobody knows,

    What’s the story of her life,

    You see her as a teenager in the lights,

    But you did not see her shadow,

    Shadow of her reality,

    Where around her there are only darkness,

    Sorrow of disappointment mingled with problems,

    A silent tear dropping silently,

    Behind the cheerful her in the school,

    It is so scary that she trembled fearfully,

    So tormenting that she just want to sleep,

    And never wakes up from the beautiful dreams,

    Where she seeked the sanctuary of bliss.

     

    A fake smile,

    Playing on her face,

    She have perfected the art to concealment,

    Concealment of emotions,

    Only showing some of the worthless ones,

    Always showing a fake smile,

    That never fails her,

    That keep a tight grip on herself,

    She fears that she will be left friendless,

    She fear that all she have are only darkness,

    As her heart is always dark,

    She have sight,

    Yet she is blind,

    A fake smile ever again…

     

     

    *pls give your opinion on it*

     

  • Rape,Raper and their Conscience

    You know,  i sometimes envy guys a LOT. Just because they have a different type of reproductive organs,they were raised differently from us girls especially to Chinese family.Long time ago,ALL girls must be feminine and their only job is preparing to get married while guys are the breadwinner,leader,hero and a protector to the family.Everytime,when a baby girl is born,the atmosphere can match those in a funeral while if a baby boy is born,they will throw a party of some sort to celebrate it.This is because a boy 'carries' his family name and a girl once married will have to change their surname,thus 'cutting' off their family line.Over the time,this have changed slightly.True,our society permits females to work and so on boasting that the males and females have an equal status.But is it really equal?Even now,females are always facing disadvantage compared to males and frankly,its kinda obvious that girls are having a harder time trying to grow up unharmed in this competitive world filled with danger.Example?Rape cases.I am very SURE that you all know what is rape right?If you do not know,check the Longman Dictionary or Wikipedia for a better definition.DAILY,there will be rape happening all over the world.Right now,while i am typing and you are reading,there might even be an unfortunate girls screaming for help somewhere.I always keep on wondering why on earth guys with their uncontrolled libido make it a priority to make an innocent girl lose her innocence.And just for my defence,you never heard of a guy raped do you?Even if there is a guy raped,I don't exactly think he would mind...I mean,come on,MUST they rape?!There are loads of hookers and whores in this world for them to **** you know!Like recently in our beloved country Malaysia,a kid no more than 5 year old were gang-raped,drowned in a bath tub then placed into a tank filled with gasoline,burned,chopped to pieces before her remains were dumped at several locations(for your info,that poor little kid name is Ying Ying and I am NOT bluffing.).But I must say,the mother is the one to provide gasoline for her dickhead of a boyfriend(the rapers were her boyfriend and her boyfriend's friend).I prayed to God so all the rapers INCLUDING the mother rot in hell for the next millennium.Don't the rapers feel any guilt,conscience or any pity to the girl at all when they were raping her?!For goodness's sake,she is not even 5!and the girl is so cute and bright too.If I am given a choice,I am voting for the rapers dick to be cutted off and burn them in a tank full of kerosene and see how they like.I will feed their remains to the crocodiles in the Kenya River but I doubt if they would even take it as a food.You know,when a girl is raped,the raper suffered no losses.The worse they can get is jailed.But for the girl,she lost her everything.COMPLETELY everything.If the girl is strong,she might get over it after a period of time with pre-occuring traumatic incident.If she is the weaker type,she might just say tata to this world.Nowadays,my mom won't even let me walk the dog for fear that they have to bury their 'investment' before they reaped life free of work when I am the one to support my family.So I am condemning those people who can't control their libido for my lack of freedom.Not only me,many of my friend complained about the same thing.I really wish those dickhead son of a bitch with their brain stuffed into their butt rapers would stop their 'activities' and if they want easy ****,go find a wife or a whore for that matter.What if somebody raped your sister and she got pregnant?Go abort the child?Raise the child alone with humiliation?God did create men with BRAIN right?And I am just talking from my side of view.Whats your opinion?

Tuesday, 21 August 2007

  • Tuesday,21 August 2007

    Practically,nothing special happened to me today.Except that the necklace I am wearing is stuck at the lining of my pajamas in the bathroom so I have the time of my life swearing profanities under my breath.I am not really a morning person so for the first 3 hours after I wake up,I became extremely touchy AND grumpy.And since my patience is extra-ordinarily thin today,I rush out from the bathroom and took a penknife.my youngest sister shouted because she thought that i am suicidal or something...I just made a violent cut at the damn lining and instead of cutting of the tangled lining,I cut my shirt and found a damn big hole there.Well,at least I did not tear my skin or anything....and the necklace is freed too!But i have to throw the shirt away.::   Anyway,I have to follow my family to Ipoh tomorrow for 2 days and 1 night.But fear not,I will suffer there too.Stuck in a hotel room with no DVD player or computer and I have to sleep on the floor too!I don't wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!!!I want to stay at home and go hang out in quizilla.com!Sigh....can this holiday go any worse for me?OK,gotta go now.I will crap here later.One of my friend just create an account and i am off to visit her.

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About Me

  • Well,I am a girl which can annoy the hell out of you in 5 minutes.I can be very forgiving or I will not forgive at all.I am also very stubborn and when i am in a foul mood,my friend tend to stay FAR away from me to avoid any 'bombings'.

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  • esecret
    hey! why did you stop writing already? busy? studying everyday? no time to come here and write also? or nothing to write? hahaha!
    • Posted 9/6/2007 4:52 AM
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  • Delphinalim
    hey!nice 2meet u there...thanks 4 adding me as ur friend...i'll chat with u later a... bye!